In my experience, anytime I allow myself to surrender into an inward or ‘hibernation’ phase in my life, I always emerge more centred, grounded and empowered.
The introspective phases of my reality are something that come very naturally to me. If I respect them and what their deeper design is for me and my evolution, the more I benefit greatly from them.
The depth of insight is so much greater than if I constantly attempt to create action, content or hustle my way out of what life wants me to surrender fully and completely into.
From the polarity of simply allowing myself a day of unplugged solitude, to the extremes of places like darkroom retreats or any personal growth immersion, more maturity emerges.
More maturity emerges, because I get to see all the places where I am still immature.
Where my blind spots are.
Where my wounds still need tending.
To see the places where I choose to step UP more.
Step it up more in my core relationship, relationships and my relationship to the Great Mystery.
Ultimately, and often times more importantly, where I can actually give myself a break. To cut myself some slack and leave myself alone…
Throwing everything into ‘the work’ has some very fine lines of how much is good and beneficial, and where some ‘hard on ourselves’ patterns can be reinforced, allowing more depletion and exhaustion to play out.
In my experience the inward phase is absolutely vital for seeing and experiencing my deeper patterning and programming at the level I feel I have to...
When I actually STOP.
When I allow myself ALONE TIME.
When I pull back from the world and technology altogether for a period of time.
I resisted these states for years, because it was all outward ACTION = DistrACTION.
The more I go with my intuition into these deeper internal states, the more existence allows me into the void, to reward me for my ability to trust and surrender to the unknown at deeper and deeper levels. I am granted greater access to the places that I can reclaim my gifts from the shadows, and where my awareness is allowed to submerse itself within the subconscious and be comfortably confronted with parts that remain down there to be revealed, integrated and catalysed in this life.
It's these inward times that life guides me into now and then, that I get all of my good juju, insights and golden nuggets to bring back to the surface and return to the world with 💫
Even if it’s months at a time of feeling this deep inward space, like the 3 month period I’ve recently emerged from… Albeit as the larger collective is going into its own withdrawal - To rest, rejuvenate and recalibrate.
This enforced global pause is bringing a lot of pain, hardship and suffering to many, and none of us know how it all looks or feels on the way out again. All we can do is look after ourselves and one another and trust more deeply in the divine tapestry having our backs through out.
There are much bigger things at play here, and they will be revealed and resolve themselves in perfect timing as we band together as a global community and forge on through this, and everything else thats to come.
For our greatest good, and the greatest good of all 🌏
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